Thursday, July 10, 2008
There is a saying ... A leopard never change its spots ):
I totally agree with that ... I have found out that i have been spouting vulgarities from my mouth again ):
What's happening ???
I can understand why , i was really disappointed with myself ...
I also always behaved like a hooligan , what is happening to me . What is the point writing the post ???
Hmmm maybe it will remind me about myself . I hate my old ways ):
I'm totally stress right now man ... Too much work and responsibility.
I just wish i was in the beach and just SHOUT !
Releasing all those stress ... ARGH !!!
Haiz set good example ??? My foot arh . I feel like breaking down . Seriously ):
EARN respect how ??? I cannot even tell Marcus to keep quiet and what did he say ... My mouth what ! iT MADE MY HEART BREAK ...
What is adding the stress is that i feel like i have failed being a good SL .
When Syafiaqah was in charge , i didn't know so much things to do !
I can understand how she felt already ... And now i am feeling so guilty as when i was sec 1 , i gave many problems )":
Everytime practice in band I'm struggling ... How to be SL ??? i cannot even PLAY!
An example is today , i cannot even play my score properly ... How to help my juniors ):
I 1st horn somemore ... Big arh !
My sister expected more from me but NO i disappointed her ...
What's happening ...
With great power comes with great responsiblity ... I just can't handle it by myself ):
----------------------I'm lost -----------------
My heart is breaking ... My brain is aching ... I'm mentally hurt !
I may look happy and cheerful outside but i am hurting in the inside ):
I really really need help ...
Labels: Back in the old ways ... Disappointed
JJ , Music and HER 5:25 AM
