Thursday, May 28, 2009
Alright i'm back ...
It seems that i very long never update le . Haha seriously lazy -.-
Life has been a rollarcoaster ride for me ...
A ride that never goes up but only goes down . Stress man ! I know its after the exams but the things i'm doing is killing me .
Omg ! I seriously cannot take it anymore ... Sometimes i feel like just sleeping my life away .
No responsibility , floating , wandering around doing nothing ... Wont that be great ???
Well i would say no ... I'm not that kind of person . I'm going to change and to be a better man !!!
BAND
Alright well the truth is that i have already lost my fighting spirit and determination seems to be gone .
I finally realise wad has happened to me ... it was someone . I was so busy fighting and wanting to talk to her and that really has really took me away . A dark place full of hatred and jealousy but now its different . I'm took some time to think but i pulled through in the end .
I have already let down many people expectations for me .
Its time for me to step up and do something to the band .
To be the best drum major is my goal and i must work towards it . No matter wad it takes ...
Well , i was really in denial .... Like my sister . No matter wad ppl threw at her , she just continued doing her job .
I'm scared . i know some ppl dont like me ... But what can i do ??? Nothing !!!
i just have to put it to my stride and move on .
So what if ppl say things ... I dont care ! Well life still have to go on .
I'm sorry my seniors and juniors . I'll give my 110% again to the band .
Like the old ADM ...
The teachers had a talk with me . It made me realised that i'm just wasting my time in band .
I almost forgot my goal ... to win cheryl , to be better ... i will win !!!
To those seniors who trusted me and made me drum major ... I wont allow you guys to regret this decision . NEVER !
i was on the verge of breaking down and giving up . But when i saw my NCO shirt well ? it kinda really told me something .
It was such an honour to go there and now is only the beginning .... I will not back down !
I will not give up for all those who have high expectations on me . I wont disappoint you .
I really have to thank Jun cheng for saying those things to me . I was really helpful and that has made me realise that i have not been doing my job and i'm never alone .
I still have great seniors like him ...... Thanks Jun cheng :P
I'm sorry irsyad . Forgive me . I'll prove to you that i will do my duty as a drum major .
Well i'm going to pull myself together now ... for those who cared for me .
Thnks for your support :P
SCHOOL
Finally the break is coming . I need the rest man .
Time to reflect and study . I wont fail another subject ......
i have to pass . To aim and score . Must study .
Now like never study because i'm too distracted man !
i need to focus . To pass maths !!!
Haha i wont let Mr Koh down and more importantly ... My parents .
Well , i dont want them to be hurt after seeing my results . I have to study and stop fooling around .
ok thats all i will update soon . Lazy type the remainding things .
LAZY ! haha :P
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Man ! Exams seems to be gone but why is the stress still here ?!
I've been very stress lately because of the planning of the COH thingy ! Well all i can say was that i hate last minute planning !
I was the group leader of this project and i seriously regretted being the leader ... It was another hurdle .
I'm not sure whether i still can go on ... I'm tired .
Last minute things ... i got scolding . well its part of being a leader but leader leader leader !!!
It sounds good but the job behind it is killing me .
i'm neglecting almost everything and everyone and i'm losing time
precious time ... how i need the time !
I seem to be always chattering but ... i'm just hiding it
Due to the help of teachers and trybe's very own ming xiu ... i managed to do my part well .
To lead and made the trip to COH a success .
Man!!! i so feel like dying ...
Alright , i have been doing the car washing this pass two days .
I'm tired . I was also one of the ppl who lead and gave out instructions ...
Omg can really vomit blood .... I really am tired .
The day before yesterday was still ok but today was one long long day ! D:
Instrutions were given out but no one listen and the cars have to be re-washed .
The activity was really tough but it was for charity so all i can say its worth it ! :P
I have to thank Kulhari and kevin the most !!! Thanks guys ... you are the best .
*and ppl i never mention*
Haha then only today could been a success .....
Well it was tiring and wat added to my stress ... BAND CAMP
OMG now its our batch turn to plan , can make it de !!!
i hope it will be a successful one .
I need to do alot of things now ... I want to succeed !!!
I must succeed ! i must Win and i will be THE BEST!!!
Ok i updated ... i'm not a noob :P
