Friday, April 30, 2010

20 days after SYF...
Okay im getting used to not having band ... Nah i was joking. Which idiot would believe that. Hais i been in facebook looking at band com pictures almost every time im in facebook. Its like picture depicts that particular time and i can help to look at it longer. The days we used to train together and all that...
One show and its gone...
Everything is over...
Months of training and no more second chance. Regrets are definitely haunting me and i don't know how to face them in future. I'll see how it goes...

Yeah yesterday was like so fun... Met my girlfriend to see how she doing in school and talked for awhile :D <3 size="1">


Friends...
I ask myself... After not being around with my clique and all that... I ask myself is it the right thing to do?
Bas talked to me yesterday and it made sense .
But i dont know why there something in my heart telling me something ...
I can forget and when i think about it... I would be so angry and sad at the sad time.
Its like something stuck in my heart... A thorn.
I always follow my heart ...
And its telling me i did the right thing...
My girl told me to just patch up but i really cannot forget it ...
I know... Its a stupid thing to get angry with and that stupid thing will cause our friendship...
But i really cannot do it.
I dont even know who am i anymore...
I dont even know why i got angry over some small thing.
But my heart tells me that i dont need them...
Not anymore...

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Yo im finally back ! HAHA ! :D It been like so long since i blogged ... Knowing that my blog is dead long time ago. I dont expect any readers but the post i know are to remind me of the good old days and of course some bad times :D Life is not a bed of roses anyways :D i'll blog more often to just let out whatever i have to say ...
19 days after SYF 2010...
I'm like lost or something. Days without band is so boring and especially when you wake up in the early Saturday morning and say im late for band ! x.x Thats pretty embarrassing when you watch up knowing that competition is finally over and i'm out of band. I used to whine about going to band early in the morning ... Whine that after such a long curriculum time in school and have to go for band afterward. I pretty much miss those days and all i can say is that i miss band ALOT o.o I miss my juniors i think ._. I miss my uniform. I miss marching. I miss my DEAR MACEY! D: cannot touch her forever le ... And i will always remember she gave me a cool scar :p
I'LL MISS SPFMB...
Mid year is coming!
Man ! The pressure keeps on coming ... First which is SYF and then this x.x I really hope i can do well this time . Im kinda prepare for some subjects but some like blur !!!
Stress seems to be my best friend right now... Keeps on clinging to me ! :/
Sometimes i need to keep out the stress but whenever i come home from a long day of school... My parents keep nagging right in my face. Sooner or later i am gonna explode XX
The thoughts of not disappointing the ones that pins high hopes on me. Who believe i can do it ...
My parents ...
My sister ....
And Mr ivan lim...
I cannot let them down! Not again ... i really need to do well . I'm desperate to study and do well for the upcoming exams. Next will be my Os...



Friends...
I've been afraid that this day would come... MY DREAM came true.
Whoever read this knows what is really happening...
I have found out that either i have changed or them...
Im really lost and i dont wish to concentrate abt this for now.
Priority goes to my studies ...
Now i know i still can survive without them ...
Its okay...
I have finally understand why your girlfriend is more important than friends ...
Because she will always be on your side...
Be there whenever you are up or down...
Im luck i still have my baby... Or i wont even go through this huge obstacle...
My dreams do come true...