Thursday, April 30, 2009

Exams are comin and stress begins to appear ... I cannot lose to to HER ! :D
Ok well today was like the worst day for me .
(ITS ALL MY FAULT)
Then we started the day . The classes was pretty much on revisions and nothing else ...
(ITS ALL MY FAULT)
Then it was recess time where everything went bad for me ...
(ITS ALL MY FAULT)
I was playing soccer with the usual people then suddenly it happened !
I was about to kick pansap and suddenly he fell down and i come down too ... I sat on his hand !
I saw him SCREAMING , YELLING and his IN PAIN .
Down there was my one of my best friend and i was the one who made him into this state .
I was hiding my fear and tried my very best to help him .
(ITS ALL MY FAULT)
Knowing that i might lose him as a friend ... i could not care less . He was in pain and i had to do something .
His screams of pain pierced through my heart ...
I brought him to the General office . The teacher said it might be a fracture or a sprain .
Pansap's hands could not move at all ! Then he even said JJ i cannot see like everything blur ... Black and white .
I was shocked but i hold myself together and told him to close his eyes and breath .
.... He looked pale .
Moments later he was feeling much better but his hand still could not move .
(ITS ALL MY FAULT)
... Guilt slowly creeped in
Then Mr wong and Mr soh brought him to the hospital ...
ALl i could do was to HOPE ....
I felt useless and i could not do anything to help .
I went back to class and lied down . I was holding my tears ... I did not want to cry in front of Xin yi so i hold myself .
I myself was in pain but it could not compare to the pain pansap was going through ...
(ITS ALL MY FAULT)
Then i had no mood to study for todays history test , i was on the verge of losing it ...
I'm prepared to fail but i tried some questions ...
I was still hoping pansap was ok . Then i had no mood to sent xin yi down for her lesson and she knew i was sad so she said she will go down herself ...Thank you .
(ITS ALL MY FAULT)
Then i was the second to reach the D&T block and then i all started . I CRIED ...
It was my fault and guilt took the better of me ... I just put my head down and cried .
I cried for pansap and HOPE it was ok .
Haiz its all my fault and i can never forgive myself for breaking pansap's left hand ...
I dont want to see my friends in pain again ...
I dont want to see the same thing happen again ...

I will NEVER play soccer again .
I'M SORRY PANSAP D':

Friday, April 24, 2009

It was a really wild day for me yesterday ...
Before school time , i was late meet HER -.- was like ten minutes late !!! OMG
It was totally our first time meeting and going to school together and i'm late . Thank god she did not mind ... I'm so lucky to have her :D
When i was there , shahrul and his Gf was there so we went to the canteen together .
Well when we were in the canteen , we talked for awhile but SHE did not want to tell me her SECRET ! I 'm so going to find out . Haha :D
Then miss tan the discipline mistress came -.- Spoil everything ...
Well then we all went back to our seating positions and waited for the time to pass .
Finally , it was time for us to get back to class and finally i can see ... SHAHRUL . Haha you get wad i mean :P
Then Miss sharon tan never come today and Mr Koh took over the class .
Pretty much like a free period but Mr koh gave the weaker students remedial which is me .
...
Then english was kinda boring .
When i'm in class and talking to HER . Its seems like everyone is looking at us ... Totally weird -.-
Ok so today we just looked at each other , doing face signs and moving our head left to right ... Omg there is still ppl looking -.-
...
OK recess time ... Boring !!! Brought HER bag as we will be going to the lab for chem lessons .
Well the recess ended fast so we got into the lab .
Wow i was lucky ! i was sitting behind HER . Not too bad . Haha :D
Then most of the time looking at her . i kinda also concentrated on wad was Mr zaki talking . Fascinating !!! :D I can multi-task ...

Then i had to go up with HER to get her shoe bag ... I brought down her bag but forgot to bring down her shoe bag . Such a loser . But now , at least i could talk to her privately . Phew ! :D
Then we went our separate ways as she went out with cheryl while i went to pansap's house to swim ...
Cheryl is always taking her away from me -.- You watch out cheryl !!! :P

Ok we went to pansap house . Golf , bas , sebas , daryl and i .
We had fun and we went swimming . To release stress and relax .
When i was floating on the water looking at the sky and allowing the water to take me away . I was totally in serenity ... life without stress floating around like a cloud .
Wow the feeling was great ! :D
Ok then the good feeling was gone ... CRAMPS . Leg was in pain and i was kinda injure throughout the day .
I could not continue swimming any longer but i could still SMS her . But what would you know ??? SHE was also swimming in tampines stadium .
So i too could not sms her ... Started doing my maths homework .
Ok then everyone ended the swim by eating chicken and nuggets . Yummy ! :P
Then we all got changed and some crazy things happened in the toilet and we all went our separated ways .
I was suppose to meet with HER after that so bas , daryl and pansap followed me to meet HER in tampines inter :D
Cheryl and HER was there .
She looked pretty as usual but smelled like chlorine like me ! Haha :D
ok then i fetched her home and my busybody friends followed us ... sat with her in the bus and we talked . Yeah ! She lean her head on my shoulder ... So happy .
But my capable partner in band was totally alone so i sat with her awhile and talked to her ...
Then we got out of the bus and i fetched her home .
She was totally scared and i asked why . She said her parents dont know abt HER being with me so i'm ok with it as my parents too dont know that we are together . Haha :P
Then i returned her bag i was carrying for her as she was scared her neighbours or wad saw us . ANd finally i fetched her to the lift and suddenly i wanted to say the 3 magical and powerful words but sudedenly HER father came back and she quickly went up and i quickly walked away .
Thank god her father never find out .

Then pansap , daryl and i went to inter to have some coconut drink . Shiok man ... Cheap and cooloing . Haha :D
Then we all went home .
Sms HER
Talk to HER
Then she sleep ... I sleep .
Ya thats preety much it for the day .
See you guys again .
I'll post more . BYE ! :D

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Well life ... It has been a roller coaster ride for me .
Ups and downs ... Omg things just happen in a flash .
Sometimes i just wish that i''m just an ordinary cloud ... Floating around the sky . Going anywhere the wind takes me .
Would'nt that be so much better ...
Such a drag -.-

Well yesterday was the school's interclass .
This year was totally different than last year . i was playing basketball last year !
Omg this time ... A totally different gamestyle . I'm going to use my legs ... I''m participating for soccer :D
3G has been playing soccer everyday ... train and the passion for the sport .
Determine to win 1st as our goal was very close as we have alot of good players .
well the first game .
i was pretty scared as i was playing the role of defender . Any mistake will cost us our victory ... That adds on to the pressure -.-
Well the first game ... We were thrashing as we control our attacking play and midfield .
Well this game , chun kiat and i did even need to lift a finger . That was how easy the game was :D

ok the second match . Against one of the good classes . 3F . baseerats and olivers class ...
Well the very start of the game , i had a feeling ...
Lose . Thats the word i can only describe the game .
We were pretty much owning the game . I had to clear some balls but it was ok ...
We attacked more and had more possession . Chances all lost as shahrul hits the post ...
Well the game ended in a draw and we went to penalties . I hate penalties ... i always miss .
So i told sebas i wanted to go last :D
Well in the end we lost ... it was disappointting but no one is to blame .
As we lost as a CLASS . One for all and all for one :D

So its all up to the next match . Deciding whether we become third or fourth .
We had no other choice ...
We have to win this medal . FOR THE CLASS :D
Well , the game was rough .
The opening goal was form shahrul and followed by sebas ... Well . It was an exciting game :D
We enjoyed it but it was seriously rough .
The opposition team was losing and they started kicking legs instead os the ball so we had to do something .
two can play at that game . We started pushing and in the end . chun kiat and i started playing rough and we managed to lock the key players and we WON!!
Third is better than nothing so ... In the end , we went for it and done it !
Third for soccer . second for basketball and first for netball .
GOODWORK GUYS !!! :D
I LOVE YOU ... and especially you :D


Today .
Well today was like an ordinary day but a little more serious .
I was waiting for this day to come .
Well i was totally excited but i did not know it was so difficult to say those 5 words .
Omg as this is my first time . i was really nervous and with pansap and shahrul behind me . It was worst .
It was after recess and it was maths lesson .
It was time .
I sat beside her but 15 minutes passed but nothing came out of my mouth .
.., i could tell from her face that she was waiting so i began to talk to her . And finally i said it .
She nodded her head with agreement and i knew that it is a new start of my life .
It will last long and i hope the feelings does not go .
Or shld i say it will never go ... its all abt trust and trust alone .
I'm going to love this ... Woohoo :D
So happy . Haha :D
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Friday, April 10, 2009

Suddenly i had the urge to BLOG !!! :D
And the cravings for MacSpicy ...
Its been a long time since i blog due to laziness -.-
So yea ... i here .
well GOOD FRIDAY was boring for me !
Omg i was like alone at home with no one to go out with me .
My friends and i was suppose to go to sakura that day ... But all of them had dates and so i was alone .
Pansap la -.- Go out with Xiao han then never care about me and shahrul . Walao !
I''m so lonely ...
I needed someone to talk to me that day ... Had the temptations to ask Her to talk to me but i did not have that courage to do so . Haiz
Well at least i had my brother ... AND especially my new computer to keep me occupied .
Among my friends , i am the only one that is single ... So unfair -.-
Well the day had to go on so ...
Simply i played the computer the whole day N i ended the day going out with my family to eat steamboat ...
At least i went out today so today was not such a disappointment after all ...
O well ... Have to go now .
Maybe i''ll update again around ???
Next year ??? SO yea ...Thats all for now . Bye :D