Wednesday, June 17, 2009

All seem to be lost .
I have lost everything ... My counselor and everything .
Seems that i fell down again . Time and time again i said to myself ... I will never drop .
I promised some seniors that I'll i never give up . Im sorry ...
Another empty promise i think . But this is for real ... Not an empty promise .
I promise i'll wash my hands off everything .
Whatever you guys say goes ...
Whatever you guys do it goes ...
I wont butt in anymore . That i can promise you .
Whatever i do is wrong ...
Whatever i say is wrong ...
Then waverer you say i'll listen ok . I wont lift a finger .
You guys are always correct and im always wrong ...

Im sorry i tried my best ...
I gave my best ...
I always had this goal , to be a good major like my sister or even better .
I don't see it now ... It seemed to disappear .
I cannot do it !!! Im sorry sis .... I have fail you . Your dear drum major will never be the same .
Im really sorry ... All your teaching of band and in life will always be with me . Even when i die it will still be in me .
Thanks for everything .
You have not fail me , I have failed you ...

If you guys did not see i gave the band all my best .
if you guys did not see that day in and day out i gave 110% of my guts into band ... Then you dont know me .
I really did my best ... I cannot go on . You guys have to follow up .
An empty shell of power .
I will always be part of this big family .
But i'll be the family member that is always down ...
Sorry ...
I walk alone and always alone ...
I need the time alone . To reflect ...
Sorry .

I seem to be very happy and sad at the same time ...
I cannot go on much further ...
All those responsibility ... GONE .
I feel lighter . I can finally be a cloud ...
No trouble just floating around ...