Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Ok im back for some updating . Everything seems to go really smoothly ...
Well but life is not getting easier but harder in fact :X
New problems form so many friends and i have to comfort them . I always counsel ppl but i cannot even counsel myself ...
Its weird and funny :D
I lost someone really close to me really long ago . She understands and knows me ... Inside and out i guess.
For no apparent reason , she just left me and never talked to me again ... I lost her from that very day.
Now, she does not even want to reply my smses . I feel weird without her ...
Friends are a source of comfort for me whenever im down . I have no one to turn to now ...
Im healing ...
Ok i have to continue the good school work. I have been paying a lot of attention lately. especially working on my science and maths . I have to improve ...
To surpass my sister, that is still my goal :D
Well, its just 3 days after the holiday and too soon to say anything but to continue studying really hard .
I nid help and i can go to kwok homg who has been helping me alot . Thanks bro ! :D
Jiayous ~ Woots . Im talking to myself like yiren . Tsk tsk :X


Ok next to my next problem . I hope hamirul is doing well ... He has been working really hard .
But me ???i think i have failed as a drum major . Adm is working harder than the DM . Thats wrong.
I have to help him relieve some workload off of him . Thanks for taking care of the band when i was away ...
Tmr has band and i guess i nid to help out more .
There was a senior who said what happen to you JJ ?
You have not been taking care of the band like you used to ... the passion seemed to be gone .
I said ya ... I agree with you .
Then he said, then how the band die with you ?
I never replied because i did not know what i wanted ...
I was lost ... I felt bad and it took me a long time to realised that i was needed and a lot of unsettled business i had to take care of .
Give me some time at least pls .
You think im not stressed up ... i have to study too you know .
Im not superman and i dont want to disappoint my parents anymore with my SHIT results !
No more . I wont let them down anymore ...
But i will still be in the band.
The old Adm that used to take care of things ...
I wont let the band die with me but to now ... A victory .
I wont be the Dm that ruin my senior's efforts of building this band . Not now ... not ever .
GIVE ME TIME ...
Thats all i nid ... pls

~No one gets left behind~